I went into the new year with goals, ideas, and excitement. But 2017 was hard, folks. It just was.
Dealing with devastating loss, rejection, insecurities, and drama just about did me in. Many, many great things happened in 2017, don’t get me wrong. However, after losing way too much sleep over court cases, friends, deadlines, and my job, I am ready to say buh-bye to 2017.
I hate to admit it, but I let stress get to me. Unsuccessfully, I tried to carry the weight of far too many things. I was trying to “keep it together” and “fake it ‘til I make it”, but was not really succeeding at either.
Letting all my circumstances pile up and suffocate me was wrong, but I felt powerless to do anything about it. Well, that was sure stupid. I can, and I will, do something about it.
It’s been a while, but this year I’m making a New Year’s Resolution.
I know, I know, New Year’s Resolutions are so cliche. I get that, but when I have made them in the past, they have changed my life positively. There is something about starting the calendar year over that sets our minds to believing we can reset some habits then as well.
I have been feeling guilty about straying away from some of those positive changes I had once made, and I have come to realize that my feeling guilty won’t help me in the slightest.
I need to actually remember I am worth it, and remember that when I succeed, my whole outlook changes. Not only do I benefit, but my kids and everyone around me does too.
I was telling a friend of mine who was waiting on me for something that I am just not winning this season of my life. I am ready to change that. I’m ready to do what is necessary to thrive and not just survive.
So, buh-bye 2017, don’t let the backdoor hit you on the backside when you leave. I am moving on!
